#when in reality i dont...hmmm

[rottingangelcorpse]

love when i find a term that i think describes my orientation but they have endos dni right on the damn post. sigh.

[crumboat]

holy shitttt i need to see my therapist SOON. like soon soon

i have. so much to yapp aboutt

[manifestingitgurlll]

ANGEELLLLL wAIT Wait- so do we manifest/shift when our ego conforms orrr is it after our ego conforms or or what bc some people manifest without believing at all??? 😭

Also, Okay I decided that I shifted. Okay I DID my awareness moved that's all that "needed". But now. When I have the 3D in my face showing me "boo haha ur not in ur anime reality yet delulu ahh 👎🏼👎🏼👎🏼" and my human senses then what do I do AND THERE'S A BIGGER CONCERN THAN THAT ACTUALLY. All I hear now is awareness dwell on DR=DR materializes into physical BUT LIKE... For the while I'm still in my old reality (no need to tell me that its cause i decided that, I already know that too well) WHAT TO EVEN DO? I CAN'T GO AROUND THINKING AS "My dr self " all day ofc I'm obv gonna have human emotions and thoughts that are in relation to... What I'm moving thru rn?? Physically at least?? I'm so confused honestly the 4D and 3d stuff really cooked my brain before, It was like "Hmmm 3D shows past stuff okay I'll focus on 4D" and then it kept showing the past and the past... and the past 💀??

1. knowing ≠ believing! you dont have to believe to know. when i was manifesting me passing my test, in the moment, i did NOT believe i would pass. everything in me told me i wouldnt. i was rlly expecting to see a failing grade. but i continued to know. i knew whatever i believed didn't matter. bcs this is MY reality and what I decide and know is what manifests. even literally right after the test, my ego still didn't believe it, like it was waiting for the other shoe to drop. so belief doesn't matter

2. you manifest when you decide. everything is instant in consciousness. including the physical conforming since its a mirror. but if you mean when ur ego recognizes and actually sees it in the physical, it happens when you completely 100% know. when there are no doubts at all, you're completely in the new story, and you're not looking for proof. today when i manifested my snack, that's exactly the state i was in. i literally affirmed 3 times, and each time it was with complete knowing.

3. when the physical is right in front of your face, continue to dismiss it. know its not real. its just what the ego sees and you aren't the ego!! so who cares what it sees? i'd literally think to myself "dang she's still seeing the old story🤣? well im literally in my dr rn. she'll see that soon enough tho." continue playing the role of the human. act. live the fake life. but know it's not yours. i also recommend visualizing more often. create that separation between what the ego sees and what you see. it doesn't have to be a long 20 min meditation session, just something quick to remind you of your real reality.

4. you do NOT have to think like ur dr self constantly. im not in the shifting community so idk exactly what they say, but in non-dualism, consciousness is the observer. so it observes in knowing. let ur ego do whatever. think whatever, feel whatever, experience whatever, let it live! but again, just know its not real. it's not you. you're acting a fake story. know the real truth; that you're in your dr.

5. lastly, the "3d" is NOT ur past assumptions. its a mirror. it conforms instantly. just cause ur ego doesn't see it, doesn't mean it's not there. eventually it'll recognize it, but thats not ur problem. you live in imagination, not some mirror. and imagination says you're in dr. so don't look for validation from the mirror.

i hope this answered all ur questions!! 💗

[twin-fawns-guzzling-the-gullet]

My scatterbrain thinkthonks on Quarantine: - The conspicuous absence of Mark Imortell & all the usual theatrics at the start has me wondering if Dankovsky is so deep inside his little labyrinthine mind castle of denial he‘s completely blocked that aspect out. Completely lost in his role and consumed by his desire for self-determination. OR is IPL forgoeing that framing completely in favor of something else?

- In Pathologic 2 we had larva, cocoon, imago difficulty. Maria Kaina calling Artemy a "cocoon man." Now we have butterflies everywhere. Haruspex = generic insect in development, Bachelor = fully developed fluttery Butterfly of Fancy, Changeling = ???? A praying mantis egg???? I feel like she‘d be something egg coded bc she‘s this paradoxical, holistic potentiality. Chaos and order, cure and plague, saint and shabnak etc. Im seeing things

- Wheels wheels wheels. Huge threatening Wheel. Mindmap Wheel. Merry-go-rounds. Drying racks with half-wheel shapes. The wheel of dharma - love that in plague districts the black plague vapors emenate strictly from the soil. Of course Dankovksy would percieve the sand plague as this crude, soil bonre malaise. Whereas in Patho2 its sentient airborne soot hmmm - Yakov Little and his little tragedian pin >.< let there be merch

- Idk how the film aspect fits into things, to me its a metaphor for how Dankovsky‘s mind thinks about time or even reality. I dimly recall from reading The Work of Art in the Age of Mechanical Reproduction a passage where Benjamin goes on about how the invention of film technology allowed for a scientifically precise manipulation of its subjects, as opposed to traditional fine arts. Or something. Maybe ill re-read it and write something actually insightful about that lol

- also really dig the dissociation the film filter implies at high apathy

- My hunch about the Inspector is that he‘s a sort of mental projection of self-condemnation which allows Dankovsky to twist his memories of past events into something he can find peace with. Maybe he is Death personally. Or perhaps the devil? Or a simple bureaucrat of purgatory? A (in)spectator to his kopfkino? What I can‘t decide is if a) Danknovsky‘s on his deathbed again or b) Dankovksy‘s stuck in the polyhedron eternally while all this unfolds - paranoid mindmap thoughts are fun. Metanarratively speaking, Dankovsky‘s not wrong that its all been rigged against him from the start lol - speaking strictly from a gameplay angle (narratively its fitting dankovsky‘s always 5 minutes away from offing himself if completely unattended ig) the apathy/mania bar maybe needs some tweaks? Having to tend to it every second with action is kinda, hm. Spammish? It would be ideal if I did have to worry every second about how I am going to stay sane in the forseeable future the same way I had to think constantly about how and where i am going to get food in patho 2. Maybe having consumables be more scarce would help. Or if the meter were more dynamic/reactive. Like, if the Stillwater is the place where Danko can breathe a little, he shouldn‘t have to be dashing to the piano every two minutes to play some notes so he doesnt start losing it. THOUGH ON THE OTHER HAND I love the idea of a constantly fidgeting jittery Daniil Dankovksy The Mean Stim Machine. I am coflicted

- love how to Dankovsky the steppe is filled with ordinary thristles and flowies - whats up with all the little bird houses everywhere? More air symbolism like the butterflies? - was a bit surprised they droped the "Simon Kain let the plague in on purpose" plotpoint in the the demo already. For people new to the franchise that‘d be kinda huge no? The whole mystery of why the plague broke out at all. Dont remember when that comes up in p1. Guess they have new suspenseful mysteries for us now

[the-m-is-for-minor]

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cat onesie has no tail and I think this is a crime.

[alatismeni-theitsa]

https://www.tumblr.com/cardassiangoodreads/722229585723424768/im-just-going-to-say-right-now-that-i-dont-think?source=share

Just curious about your thoughts

The post and the tags because this person has blocked me preemptively - and they're lucky cause I wouldn't shat all over them. This person is a USAmerican very removed from Italian culture.

My Answer:

Ooooo coloniser rhetoric in the 21st century! That's a sight for sore eyes! (Which became sore cause they see such takes all the time).

Funny how this person talks about how objects belonging to Greece right after saying that our heritage figures (like our gods and heroes) don't belong to us. If Greek culture is a global culture why can't foreigners keep the objects? Hmmm I wonder…. They still put the "Greek" or "Roman" to characterise the stories but the moment Greeks and Italians speak up, then all of a sudden "the stories akksuually have no culture, they belong to all of us!" 😂😂😂

I wonder if this person understands what the term "heritage" means, because gods and heroes are definitely part of one's heritage and we never stopped preserving the texts that spoke about them, and they are still part of our living culture.

I'm all for listening to the members of the diaspora but when we are at the point when one of them is regurgitating imperialist points, not only there's a big divide with current opinions in Italy, but I also cannot leave such points unanswered. Also, many Italians, like Greeks, are sick of how their myths are treated but this person didn't even check, they just spoke over them. Because they didn't bother to ask people, obviously.

Ancient Greek heroes and gods still mean a lot to us. They always meant. They were born from visions, dreams, and other sacred methods, or oral traditions from our ancestors, reflecting specifically the ancient Greek culture. It's good that foreigners can access them and relate to a degree but divorcing any folk story from its origin is always negative. Especially when this culture is still ongoing.

Our Christianity is revamped ancient Greek religion, I wonder, does this person know that? Our temples have the same parts. We still have home altars, and divinities presiding over domains. Our hagiography is how we used to paint our gods and creatures. We still have almost the same nature creatures. The customs have remained and have persisted, and I won't have someone who clearly ignores this say "They gave the religion up". Ftou.

Also when it comes to our gods and their symbols (and yes btw we call them "our" gods lots of times), we can deduce things from our local tradition and environment, whereas an Anglophone who worships the gods or is interested in them but doesn't know stuff about the country of origin of those gods has no idea about our history, methods and environment. Example: Foreigner refuses to accept that there's a pine cone on Dionysos' thyrsos (although it looks like a pinecone) because "it doesn't make sense" and very excitedly suggests another plant instead. Greek lets them know that it is actually a pine cone not only because it looks like a pinecone but because the pinecone has been used in our winemaking process forever, and Dionysos also presided over this process. Guess Greece and its environment and it's people are still relevant to the religion, and it also turns out that the symbols of the gods derived from the Greek reality. Who knew!

Now onto another point. Op says that the Greek stories became "global culture" because they got shared everywhere. Them being shared is not a bad thing! However just studying them and be taught about them is not culture. By this logic, and since Egyptians "gave their old religion up", ancient Egyptian gods are now MY ancient gods because I can find books about ancient Egypt at my local bookstore. woww 😂 What about this? Almost every Greek knows 100 and 1 nights. We have made it into a play also. SOO... these are our cultural stories now, right? West Asians and Arabs in general shouldn't speak if they ever see us and other nations being ridiculous about the stories, and stereotypes and changing the characters a lot but still claim we are doing great, right? Got it.

The way this post is written it's like Germans and Brits kept the ancient Greek myths alive since ancient years or something. Greeks themselves never stopped preserving their own ancient texts, and they escaped with them in Europe after the fall of Constantinople, so NW Europeans REDISCOVERED them 1500 years later. They had lost interest by then.

Funny they mention different nations that were Hellenized or became Roman territories because people living in these nations are exactly those who don't speak about Greek and Roman culture as "a global culture". It's always North Westerners who start these discussions, I wonder why…..

People from the aforementioned nations already interact healthily with their ancient heritage - which is not Greek or Roman culture but always a local version with Greek or Roman elements, and that's great too. I haven't heard a Pakistani say "Theseus is our hero too!" or a Tunisian say "Zeus is our local ancient father of the gods!" Because they know exactly how the mix happened and what their national identity is. And I'm getting more and more tired of seeing Westerners erase these experiences too, and just make assumptions for other nations.

I swear I mostly see USians getting butthurt about other people getting conquered 2.000 years ago. The nations themselves don't give a shiiit. Guys, I know our antiquities are the only interesting thing about us in your eyes but Please Make An Effort to understand people from ancient cultures and how we don't give a shit about these conquests cause they happened Two Thousand Years Ago, and we had other tragic stuff in the meantime. Thanks

Also, as I said, these conquests are not why Greek myths are popular today. The conquests were so incredibly old that the average person in these countries (Balkans, the Mediterranean, West Asia) - and Greece - had no idea who built the ancient ruins they saw around! Does this person think Greek myths were handed down from Moroccan grandma to Moroccan grandchild from 300 BCE to 2024 continuously or something?

Greek myths are very popular in most parts of the world today because the West (meaning not Greece, especially at the time when we were "cattle") popularized them non-stop the last few centuries. And they did a shitty job, at that. In fact, Greeks abroad have been cringing about this treatment of our myths since the 15th century but, as usual, we were not being heard.

And what does "global culture" even mean?? As if you see any culture to how the US (because OP focuses on the US and the retellings there, from the looks of it) interacts with our stories. As if they care about the meaning of the story. (There are a few notable exceptions ofc but they remain FEW) People with such arguments just want to feel guilt-free when using our myths out of context. That's why Western academic cycles often run in circles about "what the myths mean" while Greeks have told you exactly what they mean.

The US audience is still not free of the coloniser WASP approach. They see our myths STILL as a product of modern White Supremacy instead of an ancient Greek product, and they often condemn the myths and "better" them by completely pushing them into USian lens to the point they don't look or feel like the original myths anymore. (All the above you don't dare to do with cultural stories and figures from nations you want to respect, by the way.) Is this the cultural "exchange" they're talking about?

I'm done hearing in the international spaces that my culture is "boring" because USians have seen horrible adaptation after horrible adaptation. I'm tired of USians making wild assumptions about how "horrible" our gods are because whoever told them the myths didn't give a simple explanation about our ancient societies. (Don't start crap about accessibility, there are very accessible ways to talk to kids, teens, and adults about other cultures and teach them age-appropriate tales) I'm tired of my heritage being commercialized to that degree. All Greeks roll their eyes in USAmerican movies about our culture and we call them Amerikaniés. And don't worry, I'm getting to the real stuff.

How our ancient culture is treated and how we are sidelined has real consequences on our lives abroad AND inside our culture, on how we are perceived, on how our surnames are perceived, on how we "don't look like Greeks", on how our Greek myth retellings don't get published abroad! They speak in front of us about our own words as if they are magical and mythical and strange! The opinions and perspectives of Greeks are not sought abroad, and you are a masterclass on why this happens. We make y'all uncomfortable. You feel better if you forget about us.

Another exhibit: All the hurtful comments of foreigners who centered the HUGE milestone of same-sex marriage in Greece because all they could imagine - while queer Greeks suffered a lot these last few months - was their wedding in Gay Mykonos and Lesbian Lesbos. This was their first reaction. They didn't possibly think that Greeks were seeing that because we are far away and irrelevant, right?

Obviously culture-mixing is not bad but the West didn't mix our culture with theirs. They just took it for entertainment and their popular culture never saw the depth or the meaning of it. OP speaks about how our stories were spread while actively avoiding speaking in depth about the problematic elements of that spread. They recognize to a small degree how Greeks feel about the matter but they dismiss most of our concerns in such a nonchalant way that all that comes to my mind is "privilege".

And speaking of power… Greeks have less systemic power than the countries of the West. We are the US' puppet, are you kidding me?? Our armies get deployed wherever the US wants. Our politicians don't even fart without a telephone from the US. We are the whores of the German, Belgian and French governments. Greeks abroad still face discrimination for their customs and how they look, and how their food smells, and how our religion is and how our hymns sound, and other ridiculous stuff. Our infrastructure is slowly being bought out by Germans and USians to various degrees. There are different scales to exploitation and bigotry, I agree, but that doesn't mean that only the roughest bigotry cases are worth discussing.

"We could also talk about the additional level of exploitation in how imperial powers used Greek mythology as an argument for the "superiority of the West," while at the same time plundering Greece's resources and treating it like it exists only as a tourist site" They are SO close to getting it, and yet their post says otherwise.

Fetishism of a culture makes the members of the actual culture feel alienated and hurt. As a person of Italian ancestry you should know how this specific "global culture" argument has been used to strip Greeks and Italians of any claims, so the "dirty Greeks" can be separated from the "pure WASP" USian upper class of the time who deemed themselves more suitable to engage with the material.

"Greeks spreading their culture through military force all over (eventually) most of Europe" what the hell?? Sorry, guys, (side-eyes the other Greeks) we conquered Romania??? wow!

Plus, this person doesn't know the difference between the Greek colonisation of Italy and Sicily and the recent European colonisation, and - to say it very politely - they should open a book.

By The Way

You can still interact with the Greek culture without having a colonial attitude! Nobody is barring you! I want to make this abundantly clear!

Most importantly, you don't have to make arguments for "global culture" when it's simple to place the myths inside their original context while interacting with them! You just have to read a bit more books that are on the internet and your library for free! Recognising that a foreign culture is not yours, and that you engage with it because it's just popular, doesn't stop anyone from interacting with it. You simply refuse to interact with them at the proper, deeper level, because you always want to center them around yourself. You want to interact with foreign stories just how the colonisers did it. Congrats.

I'm talking about the majority of cases. Of course people in the US can take all sorts of inspiration from foreign myths and adapt them to their reality. And it's a good result when they're being respectful and have studied the stories beforehand.

All we ask is to engage with the material in context so you can understand what our ancestors wanted to express. If your only view of Greek myths has come from other Americans and NW Europeans then you see them through coloniser lens. That's non-negotiable. I had people from other countries recite to me USAmerican viewpoints about the Greek gods, as if they were fact. Cause it's the only exposure that's happening worldwide right now.

You can interact with Greco-Roman myths whether Greece and Rome touched your country or not, we don't care. But please don't get your source from the pop US culture. These people think that it makes sense for nymphs to look like trees (that's an Anglo-Saxon and Celtic nature creature depiction. Ancient Greece was very anthropomorphic). It's not a crime if you change some stuff in a retelling but why willingly ignore the original depictions and what they have to show you for the ancient people who created them?

Pfff... Thank you anon for bringing this trash to me. I needed to - metaphorically - throw something in the trash. It took me a few hours to answer this but well... I do write a lot and this post was full of shit I had to shovel.

[chaoortu]

a brief 8-25 analysis

supa late but spoilers below!

okay so i have to talk about the juxtaposition between these two panels bc like holy fucking shit

like 1) the absolute growth of charlie actually leaning on his mum for help in this chapter is huge and i love how we see that character growth for jane and charlie!!! fucking 10/10 i love to see Jane Spring getting better as a character (bc some of y'all rlly loathe that woman even though she's just an average, emotionally constipated, anxious british mum but im not getting into all that rn) and 2) nick WALKING AWAY FROM HIS MOMMY WHEN HE USED TO GO TO HER ABOUT THINGS!!!! Also... Sarah with the b.o.b bob you know she's known for the bob!!!! also like... the way nick was just sick 30 minutes ago oh i know smthn is gonna happen at that damn rugby match. i will be unable to stfu if that happens guys i'm literally foaming at the mouth for nick to get injured i need my WHUMP. idk if alice will go that far but i dont want smthn world ending just like. a bonk. a bonk on his noggin !!! just a bonk please misses oseman i am on my hands and knees. why make boy play high impact sport if high impact doesn't knock him on his butt once in a while hmmm.... LOVED THE SPRING FAMILY GETTING ALONG IN THE KITCHEN. COEXISTING AND BEING HAPPY

also jane was so cute for saying "more for me" i love her and the progress she's had throughout HS like yeah... things can change, people can get better. i love you queen.

i just think these panels are so cutie butt. look at the happy spring family... also jane spring ipad adultisms my beloved. now let's get into the meet and potates of the rest-- I love that Tori actually gives Nick the benefit of the doubt here bc not many characters do in the comic. i enjoy that she was like; "yeha, nick's saviorism isn't good and it's lowkey gross but also here's how he was when you were in inpatient.", like... contextualizing some of Nick's behavior to Charlie and honestly-- the value of an outside perspective is huge when you're in a relationship. I do think it's funny that she was like: "Lol yeah, a normal couple would just break up, but you're Nick and Charlie so you won't." bc like... idk! if there was anytime that as a teenage couple, the boys would've broken up, it probably would've been right before Charlie went to inpatient when he was being really mean. That's just a shit ton of stress and they were only like 16 and 15 or 17 and 15/16 at the time? I can't remember. But Nick held out and I think the reason why Charlie hasn't considered breaking up as far as we know is bc Nick did not give up when things got hard and still isn't-- he's just anxious and not talking. But yeah, any other teenaged couple probably would've thrown in the towel. I do think the fact that they're queer and Charlie is Nick's first everything plays into the fact that they haven't considered the possibility. I can't see Nick initiating a breakup at this point in the story so lowkey... it would be on Charlie to make that decision. I don't think he will though! I'd just be shocked if Alice leaned into the novella rn bc tonally it just doesn't match with where the boys are currently. time for my fav panel

i love how whimsical this looks, and i also love-- and idk if this was on purpose, but Charlie being the one with his eyes open while Nick's are closed. Charlie understands the reality of their situation but Nick! Is kind of ostrich in the sand right now (imo: bc he doesn't know how to communicate why he's so anxious) i also adore that throughout this whole comic we really see how much charlie has grown physically. he's starting to look like a man!!!!! he got taller, his face is angled out, and ugh his hair rn is sooo fucking cute but he's also less shrunken in on himself and confident despite everything. i also love how in this panel, we see their size difference a bit more clearly. nick is only like two inches taller than charlie canonically (which makes charlie leaning up on his toes funny to me bc like??? what's the point ur mouth is RIGHT there brother...) but also like! Nick is so strong physically and has been the big strong one in dynamic and page for so long that it's easy to forget sometimes that he's just a kid too. like yeah!!! they're growing up together and that's hard as fuck but we know they're endgame so i cannot WAIT to see how they work things out. Furthermore, to my peeps with the patreon-- can someone PLEASE tell me when we circle back to the Tao and Elle fight thing??? I know these past few chapters have been very close together time wise but I need details!! Now, my predictions: I think Charlie's going to have his running in the rain/snow moment. I at least am begging for it. I think Nick is going to get injured at rugby and or get into a fight at rugby. I think David's going to point out to Sarah that Nick is NOT okay in a weird act of brotherly love bc the worst thing about being a sibling is when ur sibling is miserable and ur not the one who made them that way for once. I am crossing my fingers HOPING for a friend group fight at some point, bc I sincerely believe that what happened at the Green Dragon with everyone letting Nick walk away when he was that drunk was really fucked up and I think Charlie could really spearhead that conversation bc he's so aware of Nick's anxiety rn.

[junglejim4322]

if you dont mind i'd like to know your thoughts about decolonization movements (not really movements themselves but people supporting that movement) trying to appeal to white westerners, ex. i saw a post trying to explain how white supremacy negatively impacts white people as well ... i understand that there is explaining we are going to have to do but personally that's not something im interested in prioritizing or focusing on generally

Hmmm. So I do actually think all aspects of the damage inflicted by these realities are worth talking about including the (usually minute. Especially in this case lol) damages to an oppressor group, but if that’s the focal point that’s definitely an indicator someone is lost in the sauce trying to appeal to them as a group. This specifically is also kind of a head scratcher because settler colonialism and the concept of the white race and ESPECIALLY white supremacy has a pretty low net negative or detrimental effect to the people at the top of the food chain in comparison to some other social hierarchies.

It’s a little difficult to even picture what someone would use as an example in some countries like the usa or canada or Australia. I think a lot of people really prioritize having white people at the forefront of their organizing because of the social benefits (undersyandable) but if you’re being disingenuous and doing the most to try and attract them especially at the cost of putting the people struggling the most on a back burner, it’s time to walk away from that pursuit. any white person who needs to be validated a thousand times that their life is hard too! just to care is not genuinely empathizing.

And again, there’s situations where this is fully reasonable to discuss, particularly I’ve used it in the example of Israel I think the damage Israel has done to its own citizens is notable, but most importantly because it shows that their propaganda of a safe haven for jews is a complete farce and the myth of a perfect Jewish state has done nothing but harm Jewish people when it’s clear their own citizens are disposable to the government. Not to claim oh EVERYONE has it hard but just that there’s clear contradictions and flaws with the ideology, government, settler colonial program, etc. empathizing on some level with people in an oppressive position especially a passive one can be fine and useful, however at the end of the day it isn’t woe is them it’s just another added piece of proof that these constructs and colonial projects are beyond inhumane and willing to damage anyone in their path for success including some of the people who benefit the most

[cookiepie111]

König joins you for your skin care routine. König x black reader. Not proofread

It's not that he adverse to its just not something he's familiar with, in all his years he's never done skincare the same way you do, with the many different scrubs and brushes, washing his fave with a bar of soap served him well all these years, he didn't miss the way you scrunch your face up at his confession. Even still, he's excited to do this with you, any time spent with you is good time to him.

" I don't think I really need all this, it wont really make a difference"

"Dont worry it'll feel nice, and you can stun the enemy with your dazzling clear skin!" He laughs at that.

You kneel next to him on couch, he's stiff and rigid as you apply the clay mask on his skin it's cooling, the texture a bit strange on his skin, in a way it reminds him of mud yet he can't remember a time when mud felt this nice maybe cause its you doing this, it's coming from your fingers . You take your time, wiping an even layer on his face. leaning in as you do, he fidgets, shifting his legs about, head turning, you have to grip his face still when starts to move out of your reach. "Almost done now okay" you'd need to be quick knowing how antsy he gets staying still for too long.

"All done, stay completely still or else it'll flake off!"

He watches as you move to the mirror, spreading the mask on your face. You lay on the chair beside himr, waiting for the mask to dry

"How much longer?"

"Shh! No talking"

"Darling you can't expect us to not talk"

"Yes, I can -" You let out a giggle "wants wrong?"Your face," barley a mumble, you both laughed out, looking at one another, laughing harder and harder as the masks cracked.

A warm feeling settled in könig chest, he liked this a few years ago he'd never imagine such a thing. No mater how small or mundane hed always be happy to be you with you. He was beaming, you could tell how happy he was from how graby he became

"Come one let's go clean up"

"Okay onto the rest!"

" what the rest? There is more?!"

"Of course it's not call 15 step korean skin care for nothing"

Ah suddenly könig was pulled back to reality, enjoying this just a little less. "How about I just watch you ja" hmmm you grumble and carry on with the rest of your routine " fine! But don't complain to me about bad skin!" "It's too doing this is every day?" " No not every day its just something I like to do at the end of the month" He tiped his head to side wrapping his arms around you "well I wouldn't mind doing this with you every month"

[mossadspypigeon]

Your recent post is amazing and I have to add this:

As a convert here's my hot take: it's not wrong to criticise a convert! A lot of Jews are afraid to because yes there are Jews who invalidate converts but in my experience, there are too many converts who will convert with antisemitic beliefs. As a person of color POC converts are like this sometimes. You should not be converting with the belief that Jews are privileged whites who need to apologise for it but maybe that's just me lol

I think post October 7th proved we must question someone's Jewishness. It's a slippery slope for sure but you won't believe how many people I know who didn't convert (and have little to no Jewish heritage) who now claim to be Jewish and are people's as a Jew card. It's something I've bonded over with people because it's an insane problem. JVP and all those "Jewish" anti zionist orgs tend to be fakers too. So many online Jewish spaces are now claiming to be majority anti zionist.

Lastly something even more controversial: you have to be religious or jewish in some meaningful way in order to call yourself "an anti zionist jew". You cannot expect me to view you as jewish and you have little to no connection with the mainstream jewish community (no being a part of a jvp type community doesn't work either). I dont care if your entire family is jewish because you're detached from the jewish world and you're spreading disinformation that has a lot of power to kill. I know people will say "well you weren't even born a jew 🙄 no jewish blood so who are u to judge" and to that i say: I DONT GIVE A FUCK!

thank you so much for sending this 💙 every single thing you wrote here was fantastic and needed to be said.

i’ve had similar experiences to you btw!! i dont publicly call these people out or use their names because i have a tiny bit of tact lmao but i’ve had numerous private interactions with people who claimed to be jews or claimed to have been mikvah’d and in reality, were barely into their conversions and expressing a whole lot of horrendous bullshit. aka were still goyim with goyishe biases they have not even bothered to unpack. some dont know how to unpack them too.

i had my own private convos with them and that was that. i’m not outing them on tumblr. but it HAPPENS and that is the point!!! it’s common and trendy!!

we need to treat converts as human beings and that includes criticizing a convert when necessary.

👏👏👏 exactly. if you are an antizionist “jew” and all you do is post shit that is distinctly not jewish? with no understanding? hmmm.

YES these words kill!!! that is exactly it!! we have seen them kill too many times!

like ngl i disagree with many of my people and people in general. however, the ones i publicly go after are usually the ones who have expressed and perpetuated hate. i cannot let that stand. i think i was almost too influenced by elie saying silence only helps the oppressor. that applies to not calling out our own people or taking out our own trash. their words aid the oppressor and so does our silence. even if it’s uncomfortable and has blowback, it needs to be said.

you have every right to judge. you are here in good faith, you went through the difficult process of conversion in good faith, you support and have pride in your people, and seeing others express hate and perpetuate lies is hurtful and angering 💙💙 thank you for saying all of this and sending me this message.

(also if you ever want to talk username to username, my messages are open, no questions or publicizing involved. i want to say that to anyone who isn’t hateful. sometimes i don’t have the time or energy to respond quickly, but i’m still here. 💙)

[foxxfaggotry]

hmmm text deleted and im blocking her but like. damn. this girl i used to be friends with has like, checked out of reality so hard bc she refuses to take accountability for her actions and is now actively shit talking the folks she used & mistreated like.,., damn.

she really went, oh people calling me in? for crossing people’s boundaries repeatedly, assaulting people and letting me know my relationships are suffering bc of my actions? You people actually are victimizing me and suck and are bad friends and fuck you.

this is a vent post i will not be disclosing who this is but it also sucks bc i really liked her work, like her craft work, but i dont want stuff thats mixed up w her energy & also shes a bad friend 🤷

also really sucks bc shes gotten big in the onlines recently & its annoying seeing her post about shit and community when she literally doesnt live tht life and its irritating to see the Wildly twisted narrative shes putting out and so many ppl who dont know her irl like, eating it up. i dont want anyones livelihood tanking or social life or whatever, its just irritating.

[danidoesathing]

(What's your take on the Hexcore's manipulation? Personally, I'm a fan of the "Not Quite Mind Control" approach-it manipulated Viktor heavily, but it never controlled him. The Hexcore toyed with his inhibitions and emotions, brought out his worst thoughts and impulses, and acted as an echo chamber, but it never controlled him. (Theoretically, he could have stopped what he was doing at any point-but out of a combination of guilt and feeling in control of his life, he didn't want to stop.) It never forced him to do anything.

No, Viktor probably wouldn't have made those choices if he wasn't being manipulated by the Hexcore, but he was still himself. Manipulated or not, he still chose to do all those things-and he has to live with that.)

(I just really like the "Not Quite Mind Control" trope.)

hmmm its. complicated. like ok give a second to go on this little side tangent, i do need to explain my thoughts on this because i have no idea what the FUCK is going on with the hexcore and the wild rune and the arcane.

like ok Viktor accidentally bleeds on the wild rune at the gates and it gives him a vision of the Hexcore. he makes the hexcore, accidentally gets his blood on that (neither is his fault but this has gotta stop happening man). and it merges with his dna and forms some kinda mental connection with him and becomes sentient. but like. what does it want exactly? at first it's just to fuse with viktor. and then when it gets to do that it wants him to "heal" people and basically spread it's magic to others. alright but uh. why? because i genuinely cannot figure out what the hexcore was trying to accomplish. i remember their being an interview that when "sky" disappears the hexcore's purpose is complete and thus is not needed anymore. ok but WHAT PURPOSE!!! if prolonging it's existence isn't the main goal, then what is? it has a goal that viktor isn't aware of, so what does it serve exactly? what is it trying to do? spread the arcane? does the arcane have enough of a will to want that? can it have a will? a consciousness? is the hexcore trying to give the arcane a consciousness through viktor and/or the hivemind? has viktor inadvertently become the arcane's consciousness and the hexcore is trying to help him become more powerful?? is the arcane/hexcore trying to get rid of the barrier between it and the rest of normal realm? why? and why could it not use other mages for that purpose? does it need the wild rune? but like why? what does the concept of the wild rune and the anomaly have to do with each other? i thought wild runes were naturally apart of the arcane so how can it also be the anomaly?? i dont. i dont get it. maybe i missed something but i just dont know. whatever explanation i can come up with is something i can never say is canon because they just straight dont say or even imply what it could be. so know that everything im saying from here on out is my own fucked up interpretation/theory of whats going on

i see the hexcore as like. a Kyubey type entity. its not actively evil or malicious, it just doesnt feel. it has goal (even though i dont know WHAT THAT GOAL IS!!!) and it will accomplish that goal by any means necessary. it cannot force Viktor to do anything, but it can do everything in it's power to get him to do what it wants. dampening his emotions in his physical form so it's an easier cut from Jayce and piltover, causing these halluncations that actively lead him to where it wants him to go, using Sky's form as a way to exploit his guilt and his loneliness, taking advantage of every insecurity and every dream to help other people to spread the "healing" magic, etc etc. technically it never forced him to do anything, but between Viktor no longer being in his right mind and the hexcore orchestrating everything within his power to control him and the reality around him, it's hardly a real choice.

speaking viktor's mental state, he's uh. he's not doing well. between dying and coming back to life, jayce's betrayal (both the weapons and being fused to the hexcore) and then his disappearance, the war decimating his city, the guilt around Sky and seeing her constantly, and having the thing you feared the most happen to you at the hand of someone you love...yeah not good. like thats gotta fuck someone up in general.

and even ignoring all the inherent trauma that comes from being viktor arcane, there's the fact that like. you cant force a human mind and soul into divinity and NOT expect there to be consequences. the entirety of the arcane is pouring into his mind, and even with the filter from the hexcore, it's gotta have an effect on him. stretched a human's soul into the form of a god, trying to understand concepts and truths he wasn't meant to comprehend, and you cant be surprised when he goes a little insane.

to put it lightly he is NOT in his right mind nor does he actually know the potential consequences of what he's doing. He's certainly at fault for a lot but i have a hard to saying he's entirely at fault for everything because he was so mentally fucked up and a lot of what happened forced upon him or happened through manipulation. he certainly fucks up but good lord he should not have been in charge of a tamagotchi let alone the fate of the world

but (assuming he survives post canon. which i AM) i don't think he'd really even care. He's already got a fuck ton of self hatred and self worth issues and the guilt is suffocating. there are thousands of people dead because he let himself believe the hexcore's lies and that he could help people like this. People came to him for help and he stole their humanity and killed them. even if he hadn't mean to, even if he didn't know it doesn't bring them back. it doesnt undo the damage. he almost ended the world and killed jayce and that was entirely his choice. it was still all by his hand and he has to live with that fact

[yuukei-yikes]

ur newest addition is crazy for my kanoshin brain bc what happened is a direct contradiction to what he said to kano in tht other comic. shintaro u crazy indecisive decisive bitch

yeah❤️ shintaro who doesnt know what he wants: i know what i want!

writing shintaro is fun because with him... he never even LIES. he's really genuine when he says all that stuff (telling kano he wants to be with him, telling ayano she has a weird effect on him or that he doesn't know how he feels about her) shintaro is a really honest guy despite everything, especially now that hes practicing being really nice and awesome which accidentally makes him do stuff that's not super nice or awesome. hmmm yeah shintaro would benefit a lot from just stopping to think what the fuck he's saying. because the reality is that he has no fucking clue what he wants and feelings are really fucking complicated. a woke shintaro would be like why cant i just date both😡 alas he is not woke and also kano would kill him if he suggested that. RIP🙏

to ease ur kanoshin brain (or cause concern for it) dont fret i havent quite finished playing with them *stares at my kagepro dollhouse evily*

[gold-rhine]

ok i dont want impression to be that my main problem is that i hate chicken ayato. i don't, hes like my fav on penacony, tho i liked him more in prev update when he was an arrogant bitchy manipulator

my problem is not with christian ayato, but the fact that the plot just does not like. cohere.

it starts with class divide, golden hour built on secret exploitation of ppl, it talks about like. we built society on promise of strong protecting the weak, but it turned into strong exploiting the weak. it talks specifically about ppl "extracting value" from other ppl.

but then it just jumps into "thats survival of the fittest :\ its like birds crushing when trying to fly :\" when like, no???? the narrative makes a sleight of hand and basically calls rich "strong" and poor "weak", as if its innate qualities, and doesnt try to examine like. hmmm why are some ppl "strong"??? what does "strong" mean??? they like have some bla blah about agency and making decisions, but in the entire quest its obvious that to have ability to exercise your agency on penacony, you need money like aventurine or power like sunday. they have a dumbass reality show choice of "poor man sold his kids to slavery bc he couldnt feed them and then wanted to try and earn money to free them back, should we try to help him????" and shows it as just him being "weak", instead of like, obviously problem being is that he's so poor. they have like a whole part of quest on how penacony is ruled by same 5 families for generations and doesnt examine that "strong" just so happen to be from these families.

instead of examining WHO extracts value and WHERE that value goes, it just goes "its just natural order that most ppl are weak". and the narrative doesnt try to argue with that idea, it argues with idea "its better for weak ppl if strong keep them in paradise matrix". when like. the main problem is seeing this divide into "weak" and "strong" n the first place, its bullshit, second, it doesnt even map on what it satirizes irl, bc no, rich ppl DONT want to protect poor and build them paradise or whatever, they dont give a fuck about suffering they cause. and in the end our heroes end up being like "no!! weak ppl should not be living in happy illusions!!!! they have right to crush and die!!!" instead of like. hmmmm maybe we should stop ppl who are lying and exploiting others instead of arguing that everyone should be free to be exploited.

[angstinyourpants]

Surprise! Nsfw ask game time, so get your hands off your puppy prick.

50: Describe your body as positively as you can.

(I chose this one to annoy and just maybe fluster you)

And since I want to have fun I'll come up with my own here.

69: Congratulations, the laws of reality are now null and void for you. What kinky things are you going to do now?

- 🌫

it’s gonna be real hard to keep my hands off my cock but okay :(

50. hmmm…well, i know im pretty soft and i like to think my skin is smooth! people tell me i have nice tits, and i kinda like being a guy with big tits, esp since testosterone is making them a lil hairier xP my eyes are also a pretty green and i think my wavy hair looks nice! sometimes i dont like my tummy, but people like laying on it and it feels so good when people grab while they fuck me. my stretch marks are kinda like decoration for my belly too :) i also love love love my growing tdick, its so cute and sensitive <3

69. i would immediately fly into space faster than light to find all the sexy aliens that are several galaxies away to spend the rest of eternity learning about them and getting fucked by them. i could even change my body to get stuffed with all their tentacles or ovipositors or whatever they want, really. i wouldnt even have to worry about eating but pretending to survive off just eating alien cum sounds heavenly <3

it’s so hard not touching myself just thinking about spending days getting fucked….

[qmakobin]

Closed On Sundays

(Weesa Saiki Fanfiction)

A/N: Hi! Eribin here! How you guys doin? I made a Weesa fanfic while listening to Closed on Sunday by Junny. This is unedited. This is just a Fiction from my delusion, separate this from reality.

Wc: 1000+ words

Genre: Romance, Slice of Life, fluff, coffee shop au, slowburn

Warning: none, pure fluff

Summary: It all started with a cup of coffee. Y/N’s routine visits to a cozy café slowly blossom into something more when Weesa, the charming barista. Through rainy days, shared dreams, and quiet Sundays, their bond deepens.. until one heartfelt moment changes everything. Sometimes, love brews slowly… especially on Sundays.

Y/N's POV

It started with a cup of coffee.

I always ordered the same thing: Machiatto, oat milk, no sugar. Simple.. i know. But there's something comforting about it's simplicity.

Just like the guy behind the counter.. Weesa. I sipped my coffee while stealing glances at him..

He's really cute. Really really my type.

His hands moved with ease, brewing espresso like he was born to do it... And every time he called my name with a little smile, it stirred something unfamiliar in my chest.

We weren’t strangers. Not really... I always here, in his small cafè.

Over time, the conversations grew longer. First about the weather, then about music, books, favorite meals, dreams, fears. He even remembered my dog’s name when I mentioned it to him last time. then i remembered his favorite subject in college.

One day, he even asked, “Why do you only come on weekdays?”

I laughed. “Because you’re closed on Sundays??” He laughed at that and I was mesmerized by his laugh and his handsome face.. he was.. shining. feels like everything around me slowed down, become silent and it was just me and him at that moment.. Our moment

It was a rainy Friday when I walked in, drenched and miserable. My umbrella had flipped inside out and my  mood was worse than the weather.

I AM JUST SO LUCKY! BEST DAY OF MY LIFE! (note my sarcasm)

Weesa handed me a towel..

“Rough day?” he asked, and felt a warmth embrace enveloped my heart.

“hmmm” I mumbled, drying my hair. "Thank  you for the towel" I added

He nodded and didn’t say anything.. Just made me drink.. this time hot. Then slid it over to my table in quiet manner “On the house.”

I looked at him and he gave me a faint smile. SHIT. MY HEART JUST STOPPED BEATING.

i looked away before he caught me staring. That was close

That night, I lingered than usual. His café was almost empty.. at this hour, almost no customers.. Especially at this hour, raining.

He was leaning against the counter, wiping the cup and the machine slowly..

We were talking some stuffs, about the future of his small café, his plans about relocating to a bigger space and such. He was telling me all his plans like I will be part of it. That makes me blush at the thought of it.

“I was thinking...what if I open on Sunday?” he said suddenly

I blinked. “But… you’re always closed on Sundays. That's your day-off, you mentioned. Time for your rest "

“Yeah.. " he said, grinning softly. “But maybe I want to spend my Sundays with someone now.”

My heart burst. Right after he said that, he looked at me. No… am I imagining things? Was he really looking at me like he was about to say something big?

"If.. You dont mind.." He added with long pause.. Looks like he's gathering courage "W-wanna spend your Sunday with me?"

Oh shit.

My mouth gaped with shock.. Was.. I hearing it right? Was h-he asking me out?  Me??? As in me? His face was perfect.. He's really perfect like he was carved carfully. He was waiting for my answer. His eyes pleading..

"S-sure.."  I stammered. My heart was pounding so hard it echoed in my ears. And when he smiled? Oh God. That smile could melt the moon and it definitely melted me.

I smiled back, then quickly looked away and took a completely unnecessary sip of my coffee, trying to hide my burning cheeks.

We started meeting on Sundays.

Not at his café, but at the park, the bookstore, the small ramen place.. We weren’t dates, not at first. Just two friends... getting closer, getting to know each other. Sharing secrets. Laughing until our cheeks ached..

When he said he wanted to open on sunday, this was what he meant. Spending Sunday with me. Opening his free day with me..

I learned that he loves writing poems, songs and rap. He learned that I love dancing and he keeps asking me to dance for him.

"No way.. I wouldn't do that!" I said laughing

"Why not? I bet you're a good dancer, Y/n"

"Just.. Because! It's also awkward you know.."

"Hmmm.. Now you've mention that.. Why dont you teach me? Just the basics.."

"Then what do i get in return?" I asked him and face him.. We were sitting in the park

"Hmmmm" he was thinking.. I must say his side profile is really really  mesmerizing.. "Free coffee from me?"

I laughed at it "i can afford your coffee, bruh"

He also smiled, unfazed "but i'll make mine extra special.. Brewed deliberately.. with love" he added and gaze up on me.. My heart pounded again.. this guy was dangerous.

I laughed and threw popcorn at him. He laughed too. We ended up throwing popcorn at each other, giggling like kids.

It was nice... Spending my Sundays like this.

One Sunday, we sat on the rooftop of my apartment, drinking lukewarm coffee from paper cups. The sunset painted his skin gold. We had just finished practicing a few basic dance steps.

“I think I’m falling for you” he said, voice low and looking at the sunset

I looked at him, heart thundering and smiling at him. “You think?”

“I know" he said, his gaze finally turning to me. “I just didn’t want to ruin what we have. And here I am.. Taking risk.”

I smiled. “Maybe we’re not ruining anything. Maybe we’re just… opening.”

He laughed. “On Sundays?”

“Especially on Sundays.” This time, I didn’t look away when I blushed.

He reached for my hand and held it tightly. He leaned closer… closer… almost—

RING RING.

His phone buzzed. We froze.

I let out a small laugh and looked away.

“Aishhh!” he groaned and answered. “You ruined the moment!” It was probably Kokoro. His chaotic best friend.

From then on, the sign on the door of his café changed.

OPEN ON SUNDAYS. For someone special.

And every Sunday, we brewed more than just coffee.. we brewed something tender, lasting, and extraordinary.

A Love.

----- The END

A/n: Arigatou for reading! Read my other stories here.